Driving

On my way to Chris's last night I was listening to the usual music in the car when certain lines of songs stuck out to me.
They just described how I'd been feeling about exact things. So here is a little sneak peak at what was running through my mind last night. Enjoy.


Feeling Sorry - Paramore.
"I've got no time for feeling sorry"
I think this to me made me realise, I need to stop apologising for being real. I've always tried to please everyone & make everyone like me. When in reality not everyone is going to like me. It's just life. I have a busy life with my job, friends, family & Chris. I really don't have time for feeling sorry. 


Without You - David Guetta feat. Usher.
"I can't take one more sleepless night without you"
This song makes me think about Chris. I have come a long way since I started going out with him. Before he came along I was in a messed up place. Stuck in a relationship which was out of control. He gave me back my confidence & has really helped me move on with life. 
This line in particular makes me wish Chris lived with me. I know he wants to move it next year, but it seems so far away. I just feel like sometimes I can't take anymore nights without him. I struggle to sleep when I'm not in his arms.


Smile - Avril Lavigne.
"You know that I’m a crazy bitch. I do what I want, when I feel like it"
One thing I don't like is when people try & tell me what to do. I'm open to opinions but I like to live life my way. I need to make mistakes so I can learn and grow older & wiser. I can be real crazy sometimes & I can be a real bitch too if you make me mad or hurt me. But it's who I am. Everyone is different, everyone is bought up differently. I am very sensitive, my whole family is. So if you don't like the way I'm doing something tell me, but just be aware I won't always take the advice. 


Wish you were here - Avril Lavigne.
"I can be tough, I can be strong. But with you, it's not like that at all"
Sometimes I act real strong like nothing gets me down. When in reality I take a lot to heart. With Chris especially, one little thing he says can stay in my head for hours even days. I analyse it until I can't anymore. I take lots he says the wrong way which can be bad for me.


I hope this helped figure out where my head is right now. 


xoxo